It's only words...

I'm really trying to love Christmas

2009-12-24T14:29:00.009+02:00

... but I can't. I hate the way I have to spend it. And in the end, I know that no present will make me feel better, but it will show that they (my family) actually care. You see, I've never ever eeen that type of kis who asks for everything--anything. Even as a child, I almost never received toys. It is not a pleasure to celebrate Christmas with my family, I wish I were with my loved one right now. :(

First Knight

2009-07-05T11:57:00.015+03:00

Nice movie. Worth seing. Richard Gere and Sean Connery.

By Night

2009-06-16T13:10:00.008+03:00

When stars line up, when night falls down,
With eyes of blue and hair of brown,
She slowly steps into the light
Her hair and dress are shining bright.

She calls for him, he doesn't come.
When with her prayers she is done,
She grabs her dress, sits by the lake
Wond'ring if she's still awake.

All is quiet and all is hush.
Someone comes closer in a rush.
She turns around, falls in his arms
Beyond their love, there are no harms.

"My lady, don't you cry no more,
For I will be forever yours."
He cups her cheek and blows her tears
Into her midnight eyes he stares.

They lose themselves into one kiss
That feels like pure moment of bliss.
All of a sudden they forget
About their lives, about the yet.

Enough with fanfictions!

2009-06-16T02:03:00.009+03:00

Yes, that's true. I am switching to original fiction. Poetry, actually. I've got a fictionpress account, too: here!

Fanfictions are good, but useless. They have their originality, of course. However I will focus my effort on genuine literature.

Satisfaction feels so good!

2009-04-30T21:02:00.005+03:00

I actually think I've discovered something about myself: that I really am ambitious. There were many people who didn't trust me neither as a singer, nor as a visual artist. And I told myself: "Well, I can do it, if I want to, if I love art and music..." It seems that I've received a lot of good comments recently. I'm sure I can make it now, everyone can. What's the secret? Love what you do and effort. A lot of effort and practise, that is sweet pain.

Fantasy > Reality

2009-03-15T15:38:00.005+02:00

I've had enough of this reality.

I take my brushes and my watercolours and begin to build a world of my own, just like this girl in this painting.

When there's nothing left in reality, remember: there's still fantasy.

The Painter by =since91 on deviant ART

Christmas time!

2008-12-25T11:24:00.004+02:00

I am shocked. No, in a good way! I got a guitar. :] And a set of soft pastels and some other pencils.

I am so happy!

Happy holidays!

Labels Tag XD

2008-10-13T17:46:00.009+03:00

RICH KID
[ ] You go tanning.
[ ] You own something from coach
[ ] You have over 10 pears of jeans.
[ ] You own something from Prada.
[ ] Usually when you ask your mom for money she gives it to you.
[ ] You like going to the mall.
[x] You own an iPod/MP3 player.
[ ] you love Starbucks.
[x] You have been called a brat.
[ ] You have tons of shoes
[ ] You hate buying things that are on sale.
[ ] You have more than one house.
Total: 2

GOTHIC
[x] Black is one of your favorite colors.
[ ] You have thought about death.
[ ] You've attempted suicide.
[ ] You wear chains.
[ ] You like heavy metal.
[ ] You've shopped at Hot Topic.
[ ] You have worn black lipstick.
[ ] Your hair was/is dark.
[x] You dislike preps.
[ ] You have/want piercings.
[ ] You're going to/or have a tattoo.
Total: 2

PUNK
[ ] You can skateboard.
[x] You wear plaid.
[x] You like Converse.
[x] You hate MTV.
[ ] You have/had/want/wanted blue, red, purple, or green hair.
[x] You dislike pink.
[x] You hate preps.
[ ] You wear/wore skateboarding shoes.
[ ] Shop at Pac Sun.
Total: 5

GEEK
[x] You love the computer.
[ ] You like Star Wars.
[x] You are supposed/wore/wear glasses/contacts.
[x] You get straight A's.
[ ] You like reading.
[ ] You were/are in band.
[ ] You have a curfew.
[ ] You always do your homework.
[x] You never miss school unless you're sick.
Total: 4

EMO
[x] You've been depressed.
[ ] You have black-rimmed glasses.
[ ] You like the band Thursday.
[ ] You cry easily.
[ ] You like emo music.
[ ] You hate being called emo.
[x] You keep a journal/diary
[x] You have written a sad poem
[ ] You have/had a sad MySpace layout.
[ ] You think emo kids are hot.
Total: 3

GHETTO/GANGSTA
[ ] You like rap.
[ ] You are in a gang.
[ ] You wear rubberbands in your pants.
[ ] You have had a freestyle battle.
[ ] You have worn converse with the tongue flipped out.
Total: 0

HARDCORE
[ ] You like loud music.
[ ] You love the Ninja Turtles.
[x] You never walk anywhere.
[ ] You wear slip-on shoes.
[x] You love Normal Jeans.
[ ] You wear band t-shirts.
[ ] You love to 'hardcore' dance.
[ ] Your hair has been dyed more than one color.
[x] You wear blue jeans.
Total: 3

PREP
[ ] You love The OC.
[ ] You have a tiny dog.
[ ] Your usual outfits consist of bright or cheery colors.
[ ] You LOVE buying shoes.
[ ] You shop at AE, HOLLISTER, A&F
[ ] You love/like to shop.
[x] You like jeans.
[ ] You like Paris Hilton.
[x] Getting your nails done is a fun thing.
[ ] You wear big sunglasses.
Total: 2

Athletic
[ ] You watch(ed) the Super Bowl.
[ ] You own track shoes or other sports related shoes.
[ ] You collect your jerseys.
[ ] You have/had had a special shelf for trophies and awards.
[ ] You have/had posters or plaques of famous athletes.
[ ] Your garage/shed consists of sports equipment.
[ ] You have a space in your room for awards and/or plaques.
[ ] You have a large amount of medals.
[ ] You belong/belonged to a school team.
[ ] You are going/did go to a sports summer camp.
[ ] You have a specific number preferred for your jersey.
[ ] You are/were on a select team.
Total: 0

So apparently I'm a geeky punker.

Back to school

2008-09-12T21:29:00.005+03:00

Here I am, preparing myself for a new school year.

I remember when summer holiday started, the last day of school... I was thinking that this holiday will be boring and I would had rather gone to school. I hate summers. Usually, during my summer holiday, I make a new layout for my website, lol. I pay more attention to my hobbies and try to find new hobbies. This summer's hobby was photography, for sure.
On the other side, I feel lonely, all my friends are gone and all that stuff and I don't get to see them often. I don't feel that I'm in the mood of going out, neither, because the temperature here reaches between 35 and 38 Celsius degrees pretty often. That sucks. XD
What is more, I usually don't wear shorts/skirts, so imagine how I feel in my jeans in the middle of the summer. Anyway, that's nothing compared to how do I feel to stay all day long with my family. >.< Woot! The perfect ingredients for a perfect summer!

And here's the conclusion: school isn't that bad. The worst part of it is that I won't have time for my hobbies anymore, since I'm starting school (and my singing courses) soon. I was thinking about starting up a photography course, too. But I have to reflect upon it.

Songs Tagged

2008-08-29T15:28:00.007+03:00

1. Are you male or female?
Man, I Feel Like A Woman

2. Describe yourself.
That Don't Impress Me Much

3. What do people feel when they're around you?
Whatever You Do! Don't!

4. How would you describe your previous relationship?
If You Wanna Touch Her, Ask!

5. Describe your current relationship.
You're Still The One

6. Where would you want to be now?
Honey, I'm Home

7. How do you feel about love?
Love Gets Me Every Time

8. What's your life like?
Rock This Country!

9. What would you ask for if you had only one wish?
Party For Two

10. Say something wise.
The Woman In Me Needs The Man In You

Why can't we name folders "con", "nul"... ?

2008-08-23T12:04:00.003+03:00

Yahoo Answers has the answer: because "it is a name reserved for Windows".
We cannot create a folder named "con", nor can we rename an existing folder to "con". "con" and a number of other character strings are in fact reserved names that go back to the days of DOS and cannot be used to name folders or files. Other reserved names are: PRN, AUX, LPT1, COM1 and potential drive letter - A: to Z:.

Isn't it interesting? =D

Moon Eclipse!

2008-08-22T16:49:00.011+03:00

Recently I've seen a moon eclipse. I've stayed all night long to catch a nice shot. And guess what, I've got more! :D These are only three pictures, I've got four (lol).
And guess how I did it? Just like in taking macro shots [?], but instead of using a magnifier, you simply use binoculars. And it really works!
The picture will not have the best quality, but it is ok, it looks like a nice effect. :)

Photo editing: a new trend?

2008-08-20T18:57:00.007+03:00

Is it really a trend? It seems so. And I'm talking about bad photo editing. Don't get me wrong. Digital photomanipulation is an art, too, but some may get it wrong. I don't hate manips, no way, nothing like this, (even if I'd rather see a piece of traditional art) but I'm so tired of seing bad quality, amateurs manipulations on each and every profile like myspace, hi5 and even on deviantart!
And I think what bothers me is that they want to be cool, even if they don't have any hobby like that. It's just that they follow the trend, like everybody's got edited photos and Photoshop, why shouldn't I?
Well, believe me or not, immature kids who desperately want to be in the limelight, a simple photo can look way better than a picture which was edited with those stupid editors (there was a really bad one, even worse than Picasa!) or even with Photoshop.
Instead of trying to do something you don't know, ask yourself if this is really a hobby for you and if the answer is yes, then go check some tutorials, that's what they are for!
Uh, sorry for this huge rant. I hate trends! And I can't stand bad quality. >.<

Macro Photography

2008-08-14T18:23:00.007+03:00

Have you ever wondered how to take macro shots with your not so performant camera?
Wonder no more! Search for a magnifier you have in your house and fix it in front of the objective! A piece of cake!
The difficulty comes when you will have to focus your camera properly. Only a little part of the picture will be clear, the rest of it will be blurred. I think that this is the great part of macro photography, though.

I've just played with it and took some photos of flowers, feathers and water drops. If you want to check them out, visit my Deviantart account!

Tag time

2008-08-10T22:24:00.005+03:00

BEST
Male friend: my boyfriend
Female friend: my desk mate
Vacation: this year
Age: 16
Memory: high school

WORST
Time of day: morning
Day of the week: Sunday
Food: Chinese? Never tried it, but I can almost taste it.
Memory: can't think of the worst

LAST
Person you saw: my aunt
Person you talked to on the phone: a friend
Hugged: my boyfriend
Text messaged : my boyfriend
IM: my boyfriend

YESTERDAY
What did you do: nothing *holidays are boring*
Who were you with: my family
Bad/Good day: bad
Lose something: no
Fall out with someone: no

TODAY
What are you doing now: on my PC, updating my blog, isn't it clear?
Today in general: arguing 8-|
Wearing: shorts and a top
What did you eat for lunch: uh... soup
Better than yesterday: worse

TOMORROW
Got any plans: relaxation
Getting Lucky: how should I know this?
Dislikes about tomorrow: nothing, just an ordinary day
Do you have work: no

FAVORITES
Number: 5, 7
Song: a song I've heard on TV... in a contest, can't remember its name
Colour: blue, dark green, red, grey
Season: winter
State: Canada, Germany, UK, France

CURRENTLY
With someone: yeah
Missing someone: no
Mood: extremely bored
Wanting: nothing, really

Hands Sketch

2008-07-29T14:39:00.003+03:00

Learning how to draw hands. After studying a couple of photos I found on Google, this is the final result.
And still, it isn't as good as I expected.
Anyway, I find drawing portraits/people/human body easier than drawing landscapes and backgrounds, in general. xD
Each time I put my hands on a pencil, I realise that I have so many things to learn.

Back from my holiday

2008-07-28T18:09:00.003+03:00

Oh, well, I've been in England, London for a while (almost a week). And I say Oh, well because suddenly, I woke up in another world and now it seems like I am back to this cruel reality.
London is a dream. It has a lot of parks, full of birds, such as pigeons, swans and sea gulls. Near London there are plenty of castels, medieval or in the style of the 18th - 19th centuries (the most impressive one was Warwick Castel).
I shopped in Harrods. I caught a big sale period, so the shop (more like a supershop) was full of people. When I say sale, I mean 75%! *oh my God*
All their houses are built in Victorian style (early 20th century). Their gardens are very special and very different from ours, they put more kinds of flowers in their pots.
All people are nice and ready to give advice to visitors. They are so calm! So quiet, no noise and good taste in music (in fact, they have good taste in everything!).
In a nutshell, there are so (many) many things to be seen! I usually avoid this word (awesome), but I have to say it, it was an awesome experience!

I will soon post more of the pictures taken there to my Deviantart account!

Version 3.0 of Hideaway!

2008-07-20T15:39:00.006+03:00

That's right! The birght new version of Hideaway, entitled "SEASCAPE", is here! I've been making lots of headers for my layout, but none of them looked as neat as this one. So I've decided to use this one. The rest of the layout is... surprise! Go visit my website here and find out what's new! Enjoy your visit and tell me what do you think about it!

Einstein's IQ Test

2008-07-16T08:31:00.009+03:00

Einstein gave us a puzzle like this, for he stressed examining assumptions, and once wrote: "The important thing is to not stop questioning."

Facts:

There are 5 houses in 5 different colours.

In each house lives a person with a different nationality.

These 5 owners drink a certain beverage, smoke a certain brand of cigar and keep a certain pet.

No owners have the same pet, smoke the same brand of cigar or drink the same drink.

Hints:

The Brit lives in a red house.

The Swede keeps dogs as pets.

The Dane drinks tea.

The green house is on the left of the white house.

The green house owner drinks coffee.

The person who smokes Pall Mall rears birds.

The owner of the yellow house smokes Dunhill.

The man living in the house right in the centre drinks milk.

The Norwegian lives in the first house.

The man who smokes Blend lives next to the one who keeps cats.

The man who keeps horses lives next to the man who smokes Dunhill.

The owner who smokes Blue Master drinks beer.

The German smokes Prince.

The Norwegian lives next to the blue house.

The man who smokes Blend has a neighbour who drinks water.

The question is: "Who keeps the fish?"

(Don't post your full reasoning!)

If only

2008-07-10T20:18:00.011+03:00

If only people were nicer, and their face brighter... This is a random sentence that I've had in mind.
Can you think about a world in which there are only positive thoughts and feelings?
No?
Then, think again.
This world doesn't exist, but you can imagine it. Close your eyes and imagine children laughing, people smiling, people saying "I love you.".

Hearing this song, you almost forget about your troubles, don't you?

I see trees of green, red roses too.
I see them bloom for me and for you
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.

I see skies of blue, clouds of white
Bright blessed days, dark sacred nights
And I think to myself what a wonderful world.

The colors of a rainbow so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people going by
I see friends shaking hands, sayin "how do you do"
They're really saying "I love you".

Hello, my blog!

2008-07-09T19:04:00.006+03:00

Smells like my new blog. This is the place where my rants, thoughts, works will go. Straight here! For the time being, my first post will be rather short. I don't have anything special to blog about, so I will finish it by wishing myself a warm welcome. I don't intend to make this blog popular, as I consider it more like a jurnal. I think it will be a personal journal, the place to come when I feel the urge of writing.